I'm new to blogging. Let me begin by apologizing...it's what I do best anyway! I'm sorry if you happened upon my blog thinking you were going to read something great! I'm sorry if you somehow feel I'm not that great of a writer. I'm sorry for all of you problems. Now that the apologies are over, let me start sharing my journey....
Many years ago, 10 to be exact, I met a wonderful man whom I feel deeply in love with. We dated for several years, and then got married. My dream was to get pregnant within a year, and be a mom. Not "just" a mom, but an awesome mom. The kind of mom who is attentive, caring, and is actually in tune with their kids. As it turned out, the first year of marriage came and went without a baby. After the first year, I went and got fertility drugs. Six months later, still no baby. We went to another fertility center in a different city and tried another procedure...still no baby. I got poked, proded, x-rayed, hormones, etc over and over. Nothing worked. I began to ask why. The final diagnosis was "unexplained female factor infertility", but that doesn't answer any of the questions. Why couldn't I get pregnant? Why was everyone else in my life able to? Why? Why? Why? I had many of pity parties in the privacy of my car. I couldn't bear for anyone to know exactly how heartbroken I was...even my hubby!
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